It has been almost a year since I did my double take of my daughter the first time I held her!! As a mom to be we all invision that day, the day that we see our wonderful bundle of joy and how they will look and who they will look more like, mom or dad. Well, my husband and I had gone through all that, we found out we were having a little girl and I invisioned a little blonde haired, blue eyed beauty! And after a very intense labor and emergency C-section, I was so excited to hold my daughter, whom I was able to see briefly before they took her to clean her up and give her her shots. After they wheeled me back to my room and my husband handed her over, I looked into her eyes just expecting, well I'm not sure what I was expecting, but it wasn't what I saw. When I looked into her eyes I saw the unknown stairing back at me. Not, oh crap I am a mom and now what do I do, I mean, oh know something isn't right. I did a double take and didn't see it the second time. Of course I was just so excited to finally meet my daughter and just wanted to hold her. I let Josh, my husband, take her and the nurses then came and took her for blood work and all that jazz. Josh left and went home and I tried to sleep.
I don't know how long I was asleep, but when I woke up Jenessa's doctor came in and had a look on his face that wasn't one you wanted your brand new daughters doctor to have on his face. He then told me that he had notices some Down Syndrome features in Jenessa and was going to have her tested.
I look back now and realize that on that day everything change, but yet nothing changed at all.
